A Life-Transforming MIRACLE (#11)

When I first thought about starting this blog, I considered writing some book summaries or reviews (to earn some side money) and connecting with a like-minded person/(s) at best.

I don't know what made me start with that unique question- "What do you want to become in life?". Even after writing a couple of blog posts, I didn't know where it would end. I was not sure. But, somehow, I decided to tell my story. 

Even after this decision to tell my story, the monkey mind wanted to hide some details and project something else on my blog. Somehow, I could overcome that temptation. Something in me wanted to tell the true story; something in me wanted to be honest. 

At this point, I didn't care about how I would be perceived, and because it was my story, I didn't even think of making money from it. 

Also, I hate Google ads camouflaging website content, so I didn't want them to be on my blog. I wanted my blog to be as I wished-pure and honest.  

From the moment I decided to tell my story honestly without looking for approval from anyone and without the intention to monetize, things started taking a different turn.

Something started happening to me. I have been wholly absorbed in writing; I lost interest in everything I had been chasing. I dropped them because I couldn't help myself. 

The only thing I worried about was the project I was collaborating on with my Professor. I tried to balance only these two activities. (But at a later point, I mailed him honestly what I was going through and requested leave for some time. He was kind enough to let me take a break and rejoin whenever I was ready).

One morning, when I started writing, a thought came to my mind suddenly. I don't know where it came from because I was not writing anything related. 

The Thought :

Society plays games with you, and there is "something in you" that understands it.

The mind which you identify yourself with, also plays games with you, and there is "something in you" that understands it.

What is this something?

Is it an extension of System-2 ; or 

Is it altogether a different System-3?

Is it the soul?

Is it the consciousness?

Is it the ether? or 

Is it the CREATION itself?

I don't know what to call it or name it. But there is definitely something.

Then, when I started dissecting this thought, I got answers to all my baffling questions.

The moment I understood that it was not a simple thought, I shut down my laptop, got out of my apartment and started to walk. Tears flowed from my eyes. I can't explain that feeling- it was both joy and pain. Joy, because I got my answers. Pain because the answer has always been there, and I could not see it. 

At first, I did not believe this could happen because society programmed me that such a thing could never happen, especially to an atheist or agnostic like me. 

Yet, this is my experience.

My dear friend, 

IN MY EXPERIENCE,

The Mystics are right- "You are not your body. You are not your mind."

The psychologists are right- "The ultimate human experience is the state of FLOW where you lose yourself. What you experience during that state is a state of NO-MIND."

Both are telling the same thing.

There is definitely a state of NO-MIND. 

I experienced it briefly during my second Vipassana retreat; 

But, I experienced it profoundly while building this blog honestly, devoid of any motives.

"I am not my body. I am not my mind. There is something fundamental in the nature that resides within me." 

That something has been overpowering me whenever I write on my blog. Every thought, every word, and every idea has not originated from the "monkey me". I mean, I have not been consciously thinking. It has been flowing out of me. It has been coming naturally without any effort. It is the expression of a NO-MIND. 

There has been No Caffeine. No Nicotine. No Alcohol. No Drugs.

The writing quality is definitely not from the "monkey me". My monkey mind knows its quality. My friends or acquaintances should know this as well. This blog is something altogether different. When my monkey mind saw the blog posts, it wondered in astonishment.  

This is truly a Life-Transforming miracle in my life. I didn't expect such a thing could happen to me. From that day onwards, my life took a completely different trajectory. 

I got my answers. I understood the game. I understood that it is a game. 

**DON'T BELIEVE ME** 

**DON'T AGREE WITH ME**

**THIS IS MY OWN EXPERIENCE**

 

(There is a little backstory that I wanted to share with you at this juncture. Click here if you are interested.)